A large part of my personal desire to maintain this writing space, is to have a space reserved for personally acknowledging, and truthfully exploring many of the facets of my past. But in particular, the uglier, and oft-not-discussed facets of my past. Which to me means, unearthing, and working through the plenty of undesirable behaviors…
Time has passed, and things have changed. In particular, some part of me has changed. A part of me has changed, adapted, and grown enough to recognize that I think it’s worth scribing at least one additional thing to this collection of my inter-personal journey. It’s that I’ve come to recognize that none of my…
How is one to find compassion, empathy, and understanding for those that have caused oneself significant prior pain? For me, in order to solve riddles such as these it almost always inevitably begins by first figuring out the proper way to frame the riddle into another question. Which is not to dissimilar to learning how…
Perhaps the very point of Life is to learn how to better understand and live according to The Golden Rule. Perhaps it’s the nature of this life to make mistakes and then make reparations of them, all towards the higher learning and understanding of ourselves. And then using this understanding of ourselves towards the understanding…
I believe there is an ongoing conflict in each of ourselves. It’s the conflict of our own personal demons of the voices of others that we must overcome and try to squash inside in order to truly rule over ourselves. The metaphysical fight for the “I” over; the “We”, the “Us”, the “Others”, the “Them”,…
In many ways I’ve been in the process of shedding my previous skin, the skin of generations past. That skin taught me to think of and treat women differently. The word “lesser” was never used, but it was implied in so many different and subtle ways that it was all but regarded in my mind…
What we want is, at least sometimes, what we’re not. Just by the act of wanting to be a different way, it’s an admonition that currently we’re NOT that way. I “want” to be good friends with my ex… Therefore, I’m currently “not” good friends with her. It’s a goal in the future, something to…
I now believe that my own personal insecurities should no longer be something to be feared, but rather that they should be considered as unique opportunities for personal growth and self-exploration. So now, every time I feel insecure about something, I try to think of it as an opportunity to grow and I remind myself…
All I needed to see was myself being successful at something again. My realization occurred as I slowly remembered, that if I spend time on something, I usually become quite good and skillful at it. That’s the realization I needed to set me on my path to recovery. For me during my recovery this was…
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