Today, I want to try to talk about, what could be argued, the last of my distant past behaviors, which I feel worth addressing, with respect to the things I’ve carried internal guilt or shame about. And once again, as with every single one of these topics, discussing these things is extremely challenging for me….
A large part of my personal desire to maintain this writing space, is to have a space reserved for personally acknowledging, and truthfully exploring many of the facets of my past. But in particular, the uglier, and oft-not-discussed facets of my past. Which to me means, unearthing, and working through the plenty of undesirable behaviors…
Time has passed, and things have changed. In particular, some part of me has changed. A part of me has changed, adapted, and grown enough to recognize that I think it’s worth scribing at least one additional thing to this collection of my inter-personal journey. It’s that I’ve come to recognize that none of my…
What a time to be. Fear, uncertainty, and all manners of questioning abound. But also… If one looks close enough, for those willing, I believe there’s something else to be found. For me, learning to observe with another lens is not something that’s come easily. But rather, it’s something that I’ve put deliberate time and…
How is one to find compassion, empathy, and understanding for those that have caused oneself significant prior pain? For me, in order to solve riddles such as these it almost always inevitably begins by first figuring out the proper way to frame the riddle into another question. Which is not to dissimilar to learning how…
Perhaps the very point of Life is to learn how to better understand and live according to The Golden Rule. Perhaps it’s the nature of this life to make mistakes and then make reparations of them, all towards the higher learning and understanding of ourselves. And then using this understanding of ourselves towards the understanding…
Hello, If you’ve been reading along with my writings then you’re aware that I’ve been undergoing quite an extensive amount of soul searching and self-healing throughout the course of this almost last year. Each one of my writings over this time period coincides with the experience and the understanding that I have gained throughout this…
STOP. STOP RIGHT HERE. DO NOT READ ANY FURTHER! At least… don’t read any further if you don’t wish to think lesser of me. I’m not sure that I can handle you thinking lesser of me. But this time, my writing, this writing, is not just for me. This is also for you. And if…
I believe there is an ongoing conflict in each of ourselves. It’s the conflict of our own personal demons of the voices of others that we must overcome and try to squash inside in order to truly rule over ourselves. The metaphysical fight for the “I” over; the “We”, the “Us”, the “Others”, the “Them”,…
In many ways I’ve been in the process of shedding my previous skin, the skin of generations past. That skin taught me to think of and treat women differently. The word “lesser” was never used, but it was implied in so many different and subtle ways that it was all but regarded in my mind…
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